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[cravating]

[Nate has to be careful of the candle on the table, but other than that, he's content to just go on kissing Matt for a moment.]

You're amazing, you know that? Seriously. [He pulls back a little and looks into Matt's eyes, those tears more visible now even if they haven't fallen yet.]

You've just... you've come so far with all of this, the way you see it. I'm just so damn proud of you.

[byrned]

[ Matt doesn't do choked up much, but he is now. Rendered almost speechless as he struggles to find the right words. When he does speak its quietly, and with his thumb gently wiping Nate's cheek. ]

I'm not amazing. I'm just a prick that was scared of his own feelings. You're the amazing one. Being here with me after everything. Not many people would do that. But you Nate. You're my angel, you know that? Ever since I met you.

[cravating]

[They way he calls him that- his angel- it makes Nate feel like his heart might burst from how it swells with joy and love. It's a feeling he never thought could be real- that it was a made up thing from the movies.]

I love you. [He says quietly, just because he can. Slowly, he pulls back to sit himself back down again.]

You should eat. Before we end up too distracted.

[They tend to do that.]

[byrned]

You say that like it would be a bad thing. [ he smirks as Nate sits down, and puts a bit more pasta in his mouth. ]

You know it's crazy all of this. This feels way more normal than I thought. No I don't mean normal I mean right. You know. You. Me. This. And don't get me wrong it still fucking terrifies me but I don't care what it makes me. If that's gay or bi or whatever. Even after everything you're still there. And that's crazy you know. All this I could have missed out on.

[ he leans back a little in his chair ]

Ok. So when was the first time you thought of me like not a friend thought of me?

[cravating]

[He's thoughtful, giving that question some time. Part of him wants to linger in the rest of what Matt said, because it's just so nice to hear. And he's so proud of Matt for how far he's come with all of this.]

I don't know, really. I mean there wasn't any one moment. The night we kissed when you were drunk, maybe. Definitely before we got our flat. Lucy thought I was an idiot. She knew how I felt. Saw through me like she always does.

[byrned]

I miss her. Luce. I mean she hates me now and fair enough. You know when you tell her about us she's going to erupt.

I still can't believe I don't remember that. Kissing you. I'll just have to do loads more of it now to make up for it. You know I think part of me probably fancied you straight away. I was so pressed how you didn't like me.

[ he starts to laugh and shakes his head ]. You really didn't like me.

[cravating]

I really didn't. But you grew on me. Now I can't imagine a day without you.

As for Luce... She doesn't hate you. Well- maybe a bit. But she'll come around. She just wants me happy. And safe. So once she sees that I'm good? She'll get over the rest.

[byrned]

Yeah well I'm not gonna be there when you tell her. I'll leave that one to you. But yeah, sure, she'll come round and you two can share 'shagging Matt' stories or something.

And what was that you said about me growing? [ He wiggles his brows a bit and winks. ]

You know this is actually kinda nice. With the lights out. You look hot by candlelight. You'd look even hotter if you were naked, mind.

[cravating]

I'm not really interested in swapping stories with her about that, thanks. Heard enough about it when we were in uni.

[He blushes a little about the rest, though.]

Could break out the candles a bit more often, maybe.

[byrned]

[ that makes him laugh and he shakes his head ]

Did you really? She's a right sort isn't she.

And yeah maybe we could. [ he pulls his phone out and starts fiddling with it, looking for something. ]

How's your dancing? And I don't mean bump and grind.

[cravating]

[He looks at him a bit oddly.]

I do alright. Why?

[byrned]

[ Still fiddling with his phone Matt finds a bit of music. It's actually one of his own recordings. Something he wrote and never quite finished. A few years ago now. It starts playing and he puts the phone down before standing up and giving Nate's hand a tug. ]

Dance with me.

[cravating]

[He laughs as he stands, shaking his head as he moves into Matt's arms.]

You're ridiculous, you know that?

[byrned]

Yep. Now come here and let me dance with you.

[ He grins a bit, moving into position. He's hardly a pro at this but then all they need to do is be close and to sway. He takes his hand, and puts his other to Nate's hip. He's definitely leading. He looks at him. At those big old eyes. And he smiles. ]

[cravating]

[Nate doesn't need to lead. He's okay with letting Matt lead all he wants.]

This song is nice. It's you, isn't it?

[He just knows how Matt plays well enough to tell.]

[byrned]

Yeah it's me

[ theres a soft smile at the fact Nate recognises that, just from a tune ]

It's about you. You know. Everything I ever wrote was about you.

[cravating]

[His steps slow as those words hit him.]

Really? I had no idea...

[byrned]

Yeah you thought I was making fun of you when I used to call you my muse. But I wasn't. You know you can't write about things unless it means something. It's got to grip you tight and hold on. It's got to hurt. Make you laugh and cry and feel like nothing else. Of course it's you.

[cravating]

You're just trying to make me cry now, aren't you? Bastard.

[byrned]

No, babe. No. [ He's deadly serious ]

No I never want to make you cry ever again.

[cravating]

[He glances down briefly.]

I really like when you call me that.

[byrned]

Yeah? Good. Because I'm not gonna stop.

[ He lifts his hand and puts a curled finger gently beneath Nate's jaw, lifting his face a little so that he can lean in and press a slow soft kiss to his lips, mouth parting just a touch.

This is more than he ever knew he wanted. ]

[cravating]

[Nate meets the kiss, pressing his mouth gently against Matt's, his hand on Matt's shoulder holding on a little tighter as they sway and kiss. This is perfect, honestly. Even if the world has started falling apart around them, this is just perfect. ]

[byrned]

I like kissing you. [ he whispers against his lips. ] Think it's right up there with my favourite things.

Suppose it would really ruin the moment if I shoved my hand down your jeans, right?

[cravating]

[He chuckles lightly. Typical Matt. But that's why he loves him.]

Might. But I have a feeling you could make me forget it.